RECONSIDERED [draft]

My persepective on the meaning of life has definitly changed. Yet not completely, and only to a certain extent and in some areas. I think I felt as though in the beginnning, i knew what the meaning of life was, and had no idea at the same time. I felt as though everyone's MOL was varied and dependent on their own experiences. I thought that my own meaning of life was to just live and learn. I felt as though it was not important for me to focus on what the meaning and purpose was of everything that came my way, but trusting that it does acutally have a meaning and purpose was fine. I figured that the meaning of life was to not live by focusing on what for...but knowing that i will soon come to find out. That about my persepective has not changed.
I feel this way for the fact that i see it as, "if you already know what the point of living is, then there is no real point in living". I think that my main idea on the meaning of life is, is not actually falling into any specific category, and is not actually about ANYTHING. I do not have a meaning, but i have reasoning behind why I don't. What has however changed, is a lot. My views on what other people think on the MOL and why makes much more sense to me. The varied ways to view the question itself, and to recognize that that is a main reason for controversy within the question has definitly enhanced my perspective.
Through the articles we read from the perspectives of the 3 philosophers has broadened my aspect very much so. The fact that people see the actual question differently, it explained a lot for me to see why their meaning behind life is different from others, besides the fact that they have lived different lives (like my original thoughts).
As i write this, i feel like my views are expanded so much in such a way that i feel all over the place...which is good I think. The fact that i kind of no longer know exactly what to think is a sign of my views becomin more open-minded to all the possibilities of the MOL. I don't really know what to think anymore. My meaning of life is definitly undecided and even unknown, but i'm not exactly knowing what my reason here is for. I think that the deeper i get into the MOL the more scattered my thoughts will get.